Let Me Be Your Star

So, I've started watching this new show that NBC is putting out called SMASH. It's about the backstage world of Broadway: auditions, workshops, show writing, affairs. It makes me realize that I am so small. I would love to be on Broadway someday. Or even in the movies. But something about live theatre just thrills me to bits. For two hours you have a special relationship with the hundreds of people in the audience. I love it. For two hours I'm the center of attention. I revel in it. For two hours I am loved. It's what keeps me alive. This is why I am a theatre major. Am I aware that there are a million other people trying to do the same thing? Yes. Am I aware that there are better people then me? Of course! However, I do think that someday there is going to be a part that is mine. All mine. And I will find it and I will take it and that will be when everything I have worked for since I was in 1st grade has paid off. After saying all this I realize that I sound so sure of myself. I promise I'm not. I'm scared to death. There are so many things that could go wrong. There are so many critics who say that I'm not pretty enough, not talented enough, not thin enough, my voice is too low, my accent is terrible, there are other people better than me, et cetera and so on. You name it, I have probably heard it. All I can really do is learn and practice. This is my answer to the people who ask me why I'm crazy enough to do three plays at once. Currently, I am Little Lanette Blossom in Last Days at the Dixie Girl Cafe, Shamelessly Lazy Person in the Gluttony play for Seven Play for Seven Sins, and La Maestra y Encapuchado Septimo in Los Papeles del Infierno (I don't speak Spanish). Besides these, I will continue to expand my horizons and search for my part.